"Part of every misery is, so to speak, the misery's shadow or reflection: the fact that you don't merely suffer but have to keep on thinking about the fact that you suffer. I not only live each endless day in grief, but live each day thinking about living each day in grief."
-c.s. lewis, 'a grief observed'
everything is still so raw and painful and i imagine it will be for quite some time.
stick with me folks. i'm coming up for air more often.
you know i love you.
(it just occurred to me that with the removal of the initial kate post, many of you might not know what's going on. loooooong story short we had a failed adoption placement. more to come one day, now just isn't the right time)
sidenote: i KNOW you read this blog sir, and you can twist whatever i say whatever way you want, but when it comes down to it, i'm not the liar.